I have been guarding someone(s) and something very close to my heart and I wasn’t sure how to ever share it here. If the time was right. If it would ever be right.
But I don’t want to blog unless I can be honest and so I find myself telling you all some very good news.
I’m in love.
And apparently he loves me too, because he asked me to marry him last weekend.
And I said yes.
I said yes because I feel more like myself when I am with him than without him.
Because Claire and Caeden can’t wait to see him and if we somehow miss a day, it blows theirs.
I said yes because I love him so much that when I try to articulate it, all that ends up happening is I get a huge lump in my throat and my eyes well up.
Because I want a new word besides ‘love’ because I don’t think it does THIS justice.
I said yes because I feel safe and protected when he holds me.
(And he smells really good.)
Because his eyes are gentle and his smile melts me each and every time he flashes it my way.
And because he sings when he’s with me and he dances around the kitchen and he isn’t afraid to be silly.
Calls me his “bride” to get a reaction out of me.
All of which make me laugh, roll my eyes, and create such a sense of JOY in my heart. Of contentment and peace.
I said yes because I love the man he is. Kind and generous and thoughtful with his words, with his time, with his life.
Because he has a way of talking and emailing in a super polite way that cracks me up. Super formal …and he doesn’t try to be. Which makes him adorable. Extremely adorable.
I said yes because he is an amazing father to his little girl. And I see how much love he has to give. And I know how much we have to give in return.
How he talks about those who have entered his life and stayed; how gentle he is when he talks about those who have not.
He has integrity.
And I said yes because I cannot imagine spending one single day without him.
I love him for the butterflies I get when he looks at me. For the way he holds me, talks to me, for the way he makes me his priority.
Yes because it’s possible to breathe and LOVE and plan and play and be silly and laugh and explore again.
Yes. Yes. Yes.
(The other voices are nothing but supportive and amazingly happy for us, but I just have to say, I’m glad I took nothing into account except the voice that talks to him.)
Lots More Soon.