Even if not a dollar was raised through the auction … I feel like the richest girl in the world.
XOXO.
{ On Riches … }
February 28, 2011 - 9:25 am
Valerie,
You can do it! Even though I know you don’t want to. I did this exact path 16 years ago – my children were 2 and 5. Somehow you just get through it… I am amazed to be here, everymorning. And so blessed to have my precious children. But for years I just lived in a daze… so much I can’t remember. And still the inertia of grief catches me – everyday. You are not alone.
K
February 28, 2011 - 9:36 am
I woke up this morning and went straight to the auctions…looks like lots of us did!!! LOL…you sure are a loved girl!!!
February 28, 2011 - 12:34 pm
Wow. Just love… no… ADORE. How do you always say the right things in the perfect way? You have a gift. Smooches, sistah.
February 28, 2011 - 12:35 pm
Wow. Just love… no… ADORE. How do you always say the right things in the most perfect of ways? You have a gift. Smooches, sistah.
February 28, 2011 - 2:16 pm
just came over from Under The Sycamore blog; so glad i did. one of the beautiful things about ‘blogging’ is the sharing of love, prayer, and support-even if it is from a complete stranger. so from stranger to stranger, you have my love, prayers, and support.
tiff
February 28, 2011 - 6:32 pm
Just heard about your story and auction. I’ve posted on my blog and on my facebook pages. I hope I can send some traffic your way. You and your sweet family are in my heart.
Jesse
February 28, 2011 - 8:34 pm
I found myself here just the way Tiffani did. I’ve been through several pages, reading every word of each post with tears pouring. And while my heart breaks for you, I wanted to commend you for being so brave, for still going even if it’s barely. You are still doing it. I know I’m a complete stranger but I believe in the power of prayer and mine are with you and your family as you go through each day.
God bless,
Beth Ann.
February 28, 2011 - 9:17 pm
Wow, I am blown away by the auction going on for you! I feel honored to have an item up for bid that is in the ranks of all the fabulous stuff being offered. While your auction is overwhelming, I try not to lose sight of the fact that you are still very very much saddened. I continue to keep you in my prayers and your little babes too. Keep on girl!!
February 28, 2011 - 11:15 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss, my heart hurts for you and your children. I pray that God holds you and the Holy Spirit comforts you. You are in my prayers
March 1, 2011 - 12:42 am
It’s a wonderful experience when the veil is lifted, if only for a moment, allowing for us to see or touch our loved ones who have journeyed on ahead of us. My eternal companion moved ahead almost 12 years ago to prepare a place for us. I went into labor 9 weeks early with our 9th child. My second night in the hospital He passed as the result of a grand mal seizure while sleeping. He had a brain tumor but had been seizure free for several years.I had our baby the day after his funeral. I missed my husband so much that my heart physically hurt. It took me forever to clean out his drawers, somehow it made it seem less final having his clothes there, his watch on the dresser where he left it. I would plead with Heavenly Father to see him, I needed him. One night while sleepping I felt someone holding me, I cried out “go away” then I heard him say “It’s okay, it’s me”, I reached up, felt his head and fell back asleep. I knew that it wasn’t a dream and our oldest son, 17 at the time, confirmed that his dad had been there that night, he woke up and saw him standing at the foot of his bed. I know that he watches over us daily. Our baby wasn’t suppose to live more than 3 days after she was born. She is here with us today as a direct result of her daddy petitioning Heavenly Father in her behalf several times(medically she shouldn’t be here).I look forward to the future when we will all be together again. You will always count… days, weeks, months, years, event’s. There will always be “first’s”, long after the “first year”. Cherish your memories and your future. You are never alone!
March 1, 2011 - 3:40 am
Val, I cannot imagine what you are going through but reading your blog…how could we not help. Thank you for sharing and for reminding me what is really important.
God bless,
JD, Stacey and Savannah Parker
Murfreesboro, TN
March 1, 2011 - 8:46 am
Beautiful !!!!!!
March 1, 2011 - 9:04 am
Dear Val,
I found your story through my love of Matilda Jane and it has touched me in so many ways. I feel for you and have been praying for you and your family. I can’t imagine going through what you have been through and think you are so strong! The auction is amazing and I can’t wait to see what items I win. Sending love,
PJH
March 1, 2011 - 9:04 am
Dear Val,
I found your story through my love of Matilda Jane and it has touched me in so many ways. I feel for you and have been praying for you and your family. I can’t imagine going through what you have been through and think you are so strong! The auction is amazing and I can’t wait to see what items I win. Sending love,
PJH
March 1, 2011 - 10:59 am
Goosebumps, my sweet friend. My sentiments EXACTLY! Love you.
March 1, 2011 - 11:53 am
praying for you!
March 1, 2011 - 12:13 pm
I was sent in your direction (via the auction) from Three Sisters, and my heart is absolutely breaking for you and your precious “chickens”. I wanted to pass along a piece of advice I received when I was battling cancer, that I hope will help you keep chugging along as well. When I was undergoing chemo, I was told by the nurse to, each day, do just a tiny bit more than I think I can. If I feel as if I can’t move from the couch, get up. If feel as though I could only walk a block, go all the way around the block. I can only imagine how hard it is for you to get up off the couch and function each day, but I know you can do it. YOU know you can do it. And there appear to be HUNDREDS of people out there who love you and know you can do it…even if they have to hold you up! And when you are ready with fully charged camera batteries 
, I highly recommend that you participate in one of Willette’s incredibly inspirational photography workshops…she has a wonderful way of helping you appreciate the little things that make life worth living! http://www.willettedesigns.com
best of luck to you…my heart and my thoughts are with you.
March 1, 2011 - 5:17 pm
I know that you dont know me. But, I read your story and just wanted to say I’m so sorry for your loss.
I lost my 3 year old daughter last year. I still count the days. The pain and grief I felt and still feel has been overwhelming at times. Although I know what loss is I couldn’t imagine losing my husband. I pray that God will comfort you as you walk through the days ahead.
March 2, 2011 - 12:27 am
stumbled upon your blog tonight via facebook. someone shared a link. and i have read pretty much every post. i couldn’t stop myself. been sitting here for a couple of hours now. can i just say how sorry i am for what you’re going through. i know you’ve heard these words so many times and they probably fall extremely flat because it doesn’t take the pain away. but please know that i am praying for you and your beautiful kiddos. i pray that God pours indescribable peace into your mind and soul. you are such a beautiful spirit and i know, no matter how much this hurts right now, God is doing it all for good. i am crying as im writing this because even though i dont even know you, my heart is terribly aching for you.
March 2, 2011 - 6:40 am
I just wanted you to know it’s NOT crazy that you saw him. or that you were looking for him or a sign from him. I did the same when my son’s father passed (1.5 years ago) He wasn’t my husband, I hadn’t seen him in 13 years, hadn’t spoken to him in probably a year. I was (am) furious at him. I am a married woman and deeply love my husband, but I mourned his death. Not just for my son, who will now never know his father, but I mourned my first love. I looked constantly for a sign. Something. Songs would play and I was convinced it was him. They would repeat and I was convinced he was doing it to prove that he was doing it. lol His mom had to deal with me on everything because my son was his only heir and he had no will and no wife (and my son was 14 at the time). She had to call me about his 401k, his checking account, his car…everything. she hates me! lol Me and his sister were convinced that he was doing it just to laugh at his mom because I was the only one that ever stood up to her. (they weren’t speaking when he passed, because she is really an awful person)
so you are completely normal! just thought you should know that.
March 2, 2011 - 6:41 am
I just wanted you to know it’s NOT crazy that you saw him. or that you were looking for him or a sign from him. I did the same when my son’s father passed (1.5 years ago) He wasn’t my husband, I hadn’t seen him in 13 years, hadn’t spoken to him in probably a year. I was (am) furious at him. I am a married woman and deeply love my husband, but I mourned his death. Not just for my son, who will now never know his father, but I mourned my first love. I looked constantly for a sign. Something. Songs would play and I was convinced it was him. They would repeat and I was convinced he was doing it to prove that he was doing it. lol His mom had to deal with me on everything because my son was his only heir and he had no will and no wife (and my son was 14 at the time). She had to call me about his 401k, his checking account, his car…everything. she hates me! lol Me and his sister were convinced that he was doing it just to laugh at his mom because I was the only one that ever stood up to her. (they weren’t speaking when he passed, because she is really an awful person)
so you are completely normal! just thought you should know that.
March 2, 2011 - 9:37 am
Dear Val:
Have you heard about this blog http://www.mattlogelin.com/?
It is the story of a guy just like us… but the other way around, if you know what I mean (HE was left behind with a little girl to raise by himself).
They also help people in your situation through an organization that get´s his wife´s name Liz Logelin.
You should give it a try! It could help!
Kisses and blessings.
Mirys from Brazil
http://www.diariodos3mosqueteiros.blogspot.com
PS: if you wanna to stop by our blog, be welcome! There is a translation button on the top of the first page!
March 2, 2011 - 12:07 pm
Dear Val,
A few days ago, I found a link that led me here. It led me to you, to wayne, to claire and to caeden. I have spent most of the last few days reading through your archives. There is no way that my words could ever do justice to your story, but I will attempt. The way that you have woven the story of your family over the last nearly three years is the way that every mom hopes to document their family. You have shown us the very best of your life along with the very worst moments, and always with honesty and grace. To live an authentic life, there is no better example of a life well-lived.
My heart aches for you, for your sweet babies. I am so very sorry for your great loss. Wayne was obviously an exceptional man.
May God’s grace pour down upon you as you walk this new path.
xo*tricia
March 4, 2011 - 4:32 am
Ahhh, he was lucky to be so loved. I’m so sorry that he died, he sounded so brave. My heart goes out to you. In my experience, the pain will soften but never disappear but that’s a reflection of how much you loved him. I hope everything becomes more manageable, you sound like you are doing amazingly this far.xxx
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