I remember looking over at the clock in a panic as everyone came into the bedroom. As Wayne took his final breath, the clock read 8:40 pm. I remember screaming like a wounded animal, tears and snot ran down my face as I buried my head into Wayne’s neck. Laying beside him knowing I should...
Monthly Archives: February 2011
The obvious is that we’re alone. I am not married. The kids have a Dad but they will never see him on earth again. And, that’s a long time to wait when you are 2 and 5. Alone. No one to whisper to in the night as I fall asleep. No one to have coffee...
Breakfast was always our “thing.” It started when I was in Grad School. We didn’t see each other at night, so we went to breakfast each morning and caught up over oatmeal. He always ordered thing thing called the “Rod Special.” An egg sandwich with a side of oatmeal. They hated making the “special” (not...
When Wayne died I layed with him until it wasn’t okay. And when it wasn’t okay, I sat beside his bed on the floor and held his hand. And when I couldn’t do that, I took his blankets off and stared at him. Then I traced my fingers over his body, not wanting to forget...
Memorial Information Here. Today I watched Dave and Donna, Nikki and John, Mom and Ken all drive away. Headed back to Rapid City. I couldn’t bring myself to go to Rapid yet. To sit and wait for Friday. I just couldn’t do it. So … I let them go and turned back around and into...